Self doubt and lack of motivation?

Do you ever doubt yourself and lack motivation? Being a self-employed artist means I rely on self motivation. I would love to say I feel motivated 100% and that I never doubt my ability, but that is not the truth. I doubt my artistic talent all the time. I doubt that people will show any interest in what I make. I often feel I am wasting my time. It is hard to shake these feelings at times, and I often rely on those closest to me to give me encouragement, which in turn gives me motivation. It is hard to be your own champion and have consistent self-belief. In these times, I often go back to the source of the why? Why do i create art? For me, it feels like a calling, I feel close to God when I create, and it is a huge part of my relationship with him. My prayer this morning was "help me to be my greatest champion." And that is my prayer for all of the creatives out there. When we have self-doubt and motivation , that we can dig deep and encourage ourselves to continue on this artistic journey, even if no one sees or cares what we make we can cheer ourselves on from the side line, keep going, one step at a time or in my case, one brush stroke at a time. Self-promotion is necessary for an artist, and it is something I hate to do. I hate showing myself and being vulnerable. Even posting a photo of myself makes me recoil, but I realise that an artist who makes work and never shows it is hiding their light. Stepping out of my comfort zone is part of the job and one that I must confront and embrace with both arms. After a long summer break.........I AM BACK.

Memorial

Mixed media on pastel paper

Framed with gold gilt frame 59x77x2cm